My head is so messed up! what do i do carntt think straight anymore 😦 was so close to a suicide atempt last night picked up a knife and every bo of tablets i could get my hands on, wrote a suicide letter for my mam telling her its all her fault for everything and its her fault i want to die so much!! anything has got to be better than living this life any more:( wish stupid bipolar did not exisit its wreked my life!!!!!! been depressed for about a mounth now and i carnt cope at all wouldnt be so bad if i had ups inbetween! need to sort my head out and fast koz i wont be here much longer i im like this!!!!!